AM SOBER NOW

How would you feel when you find yourself crying in the morning of your birthday????

Perhaps, noone would ever want it to happen...Right...and I guess I wasn't blessed to be lucky today and be spared from the pains of feeling lonely on a supposed to be an important day of my life.

The whole day turned out to be happy on one hand and sad on the other hand.

My cel started to be filled with greetings from 1am 'til 9p.m...i was touched by one of the calls i received today from an old friend who teaches elementary studes. She asked the studes to sing for me a happy birthday song...it made me smile and helped me pull myself out of the bed!...Yes...I didn't want to get up and face the day ahead...I knew it was wrong...but good thing I was able to overcome the feeling of aloneness.

I went to work and didn't expect that people would be there to make me happy from my friends to my students...whoa!!!...they were really adorable!...They gave me a surprise party and I really enjoyed every moment of it...at least I was able to forget about my pains even just for some time.

But of course, at the end of the day, all the happiness ended and emptiness set in. Why? Well, the person I was expecting to give me a call didn't call at all...Why in the world should we have a misunderstanding on the day of my birthday???!?!?!?!...Perhaps, if i was really important to him...despite the fact that we are not that in good terms...he should've called...at least for a minute.

Guess, I was a little bit of a fool to expect something like that from him.

Oh!...my day is over...it's 12:25 a.m.

Time is up for sulking over something that I cannot change anymore.

Perhaps, life for me would be better today than yesterday...have to move on.

God help me.

I'll just sing my heart out here...

With or Without YOU
by U2

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you


Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails (he) makes me wait
And I wait without you


With or without you
With or without you


Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you


With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you


And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away


My hands are tied
My body bruised, (he's) got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose


And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away


With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you


With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you