Thursday, March 18, 2004

RO BUDDY

It's been quite a while since I started playing one of the hottest pc game in town...Ragnarok Online!...Thought I would never like the game but since the first time I walked in to Midgard City I can't help but play RO every night, at least before I go to sleep. It seems like my day isn't complete without it.

Playing the game is really challenging in itself. Imagine you got to improve your skills to move up to the top and become the best of the character you have chosen to play...It's also a place to connect with other people who are as addicted as you are to the game...Well, at least, you guys will be sharing a common experience...the RO experience!

I was anti-social for some time...I seldom talk to people around the place 'til I met somebody who was in dire need of someone to talk to. I was then making a career move as an archer when this "creature" gave me a private message.

He was kind of a nice person...we had a chat for I guess two hours without minding about our RO accounts which continuously dropped down while our talk went on 'til we decided to move to ym and continued the talk there.

I was really happy for that person for at least before we said "good morning" to each other, he was a bit ok from a painful experience. I was thankful also that I was able to give him a lift from his problem.

Since he is a senior in RO, he promised to tank me up so I could easily level up. The following night, he did what he promised me and he was really a great help to my new character at Fenrir. This thing continues whenever we see each other online.

He isn't just a mentor in RO, I guess he will become a real good friend to me.

Now, I only have one prayer for him, that he may find true happiness in this life for he is kind.

Guess, he is the best RO buddy i'll ever have!!!

Thanks, Nio!

Hope you'll like this song by Evanescence...It's something we could sing to the people really special to us...If you aren't familiar with the tune, just go through the lyrics. The message is really something you could relate to...(",)

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[CHORUS:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

AM SOBER NOW

How would you feel when you find yourself crying in the morning of your birthday????

Perhaps, noone would ever want it to happen...Right...and I guess I wasn't blessed to be lucky today and be spared from the pains of feeling lonely on a supposed to be an important day of my life.

The whole day turned out to be happy on one hand and sad on the other hand.

My cel started to be filled with greetings from 1am 'til 9p.m...i was touched by one of the calls i received today from an old friend who teaches elementary studes. She asked the studes to sing for me a happy birthday song...it made me smile and helped me pull myself out of the bed!...Yes...I didn't want to get up and face the day ahead...I knew it was wrong...but good thing I was able to overcome the feeling of aloneness.

I went to work and didn't expect that people would be there to make me happy from my friends to my students...whoa!!!...they were really adorable!...They gave me a surprise party and I really enjoyed every moment of it...at least I was able to forget about my pains even just for some time.

But of course, at the end of the day, all the happiness ended and emptiness set in. Why? Well, the person I was expecting to give me a call didn't call at all...Why in the world should we have a misunderstanding on the day of my birthday???!?!?!?!...Perhaps, if i was really important to him...despite the fact that we are not that in good terms...he should've called...at least for a minute.

Guess, I was a little bit of a fool to expect something like that from him.

Oh!...my day is over...it's 12:25 a.m.

Time is up for sulking over something that I cannot change anymore.

Perhaps, life for me would be better today than yesterday...have to move on.

God help me.

I'll just sing my heart out here...

With or Without YOU
by U2

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you


Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails (he) makes me wait
And I wait without you


With or without you
With or without you


Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you


With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you


And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away


My hands are tied
My body bruised, (he's) got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose


And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away


With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you


With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you

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